Autumn Begins

Hey guys!

I'm back and wow feeling the stress of sixthform properly starting all over again, just have to learn to take my own & other people's advice and not let the little things get to me. Anxiety is a bitch though, I just have to learn how to manage it but sometimes it just seems to have a life of its own and I've realised how hard I find it to talk about things like anxiety. Whenever my anxiety is sky high I just seem to go inactive, anyone else just prefer not to talk about it as the more you do the more anxious you get? Hoping it's not just me but I'd prefer to tweet about stuff that I'm exited about as if you get in a conversation with me about once upon a time I could honestly rant for days but when someone asks me about dealing with my anxiety I just curl into my shell and I'm like "erm yeah so..words you know them" and then leave idk. 

I know people have different ways with dealing with stress but I prefer not to talk about it too much and get distracted with something else. You know?! I feel like I might not be making much sense but hopefully you get my drift ha. I've realised that's why I love to retweet stuff so much because then I can use other people's quotes to explain how I'm feeling instead (useful life hack if someone asks you how you feel).

So Autumn has officially begun!! I absolutely love the change in colours of everything in nature, the deep red colours in leaves and the surroundings are just so tumblr (I use tumblr to describe so many things but yet I don't even have an account as it just confuses me). Although I've never really tried I just prefer looking at tumblr accounts on Twitter (shoutout to the account sincerelytumblr..seriously go check it out) I could spend hours just reading them I relate so much, this is one of my many personal favourites:

Someone asked "why do mums put dishes away so loudly?"

Someone replied "to let you know no one helps out around the house"

Cat videos are my favourite as well, helps that I'm a cat person so I just find everything a cat does so much cuter, but even dog people must admit they are so funny/cute to watch. Bringing it back to Autumn or Fall time if you're American, here are some autumnal pictures I took today for my photography but I just love them (but by next week I'll guarantee I'll be sick of everything autumn because of doing it as part of my a level). That's the thing (one of the many things) that annoy me about school you start off with a subject you love but the stress that gets thrown at us all is just so off putting and makes you hate something you once loved. That's why I'm pretty sure I wanna keep photography as a hobby rather than a job because I do honestly love it but I would never want to end up hating it and seeing it as work (got a bit deep there sorry I'll put my snorkel away haha..again I apologise for my 'jokes';)

^I was holding the leaf which would have made it even more tumblr but I had to crop my fingers out because you know when you've had nail polish on for over a week & it's in that awkward in-between stage when you know you need to take them off & paint them again but don't because it's effort..yep well that's how my nails look at the moment. Just painting the picture for you guys (get it 'painting' yep I'm sorry I'll stop..) 

I was literally just walking around my garden with the same leaf making sure it was lit up by sunlight as I don't have an expensive hotshoe flash (I think it's called) to use so photography tip to save money: use natural sunlight but anyway..

Talk next Sunday!

Sophie 

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